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One Year to Live

I′ve been reading a book by Stephen Levine where he imagines he has one year to live and if this were the case, how he might use the time he has left. I′ve had this book for many years and this is the first time I′ve opened it. I wonder why?

I think my 4 year old grandson may have the answer. I′ve been aware for a while that he doesn′t like saying goodbye. He rang me to let me know what he was doing, and as is his wont, immediately hung up. When his Mum asked him about saying goodbye, he said ‘I just want to keep playing and saying goodbye makes me feel funny in the tummy.’

And maybe thinking about saying goodbye to this life has made me ‘feel funny in the tummy.’ This makes sense of why I′ve often glanced at this book, but haven′t opened it.

The only thing we can be certain of in this life is that we′re going to die and face the ‘great unknown’. There are many stories attached to this awesome event. We can view it as the absolute end of our existence, as going to heaven or hell, as being reunited with our loved ones who have gone before us, as being reunited with the Source from whence we came, to name just a few.

I′m with Socrates when he says ‘I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance,’ especially as it applies to what, if anything happens after I die. Covey says ‘the most important thing is to keep the most important thing the most important thing’ and what is most important to me is to experience each unfolding moment of this life I do have, as fully as possible.

So, as 2016 is drawing to a close, I have decided to live this coming year as though it is my last. I am determined to:

  • open my mind/heart to how life actually is rather than how I think it should be;
  • exclude nothing, as when I close my heart to anyone or anything, to this extent I reduce my capacity to love;
  • accept that humans are perfectly imperfect in this earthly human realm and that this is how it is, and it cannot and will not be changed;
  • leave ‘my house’ in order, so that when it is time for me to move through the veil, I won′t be leaving clutter behind me for others to sort out.

All of this means that I will be finished ‘playing’ and will be ready when my time comes, to ‘say goodbye’ to my wonderful human existence.

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